Back again, so soon…
I just wanted to do a quick blog post about fighting for your life.
Two days ago I stood up for the first time in 6 months and though I looked like a wonky letter S (other letters of the alphabet are available) I felt amazing that I cried happy tears to be honest I cry at everything happy, sad or indifferent, anyway I’m so proud of myself and though I know I ain’t ever gonna race Usian Bolt, that is fine because I’d only be eating his dust anyway, Plus unless you are an athlete our only competition is with ourselves, to be the best version of yourself you can be, I won’t lie it’s been bloody hard, frustrating, scary and damn painful and this is only the beginning in a way as next step is to do just that….Step, so fingers crossed that the arthritis plays ball.
As someone who has suffered long term depression, I am not trying to make light of how crippling it is, and how low it makes you feel in the world around you, along side anxiety and panic attacks, it is so hard to break though but you can fight it. I’m not saying it’s easy but I know it is possible all it take is one step, get professional help if you need to, but you have to help yourself to because if you don’t keep fighting for you no one can do it for you. If you are currently in a hard place in your life which is scary, uncomfortable and painful then why not try to fight it, yes it will also be painful, scary and uncomfortable but the further you keep fighting the more you will achieve the stronger you will become and one day you will realize how much things have changed and it will all have started with just one step, because If nothing changes then nothing changes, Keep fighting for your life to be the best it can be. You are loved, You are worth it and You deserve it. So live it!